TRUTH BEHIND MY PAP PIX

Toyah Willcox
'I got high as a kite in the jungle'

• In the late 80s my husband, guitarist Robert Fripp, and I made an album together called Kneeling At The Shrine, and this is us promoting it. Ours is not a conventional marriage because he lives in Nashville and I live over here. I would prefer it if we lived in the same country, but neither of us are willing to give up our careers. It's a compromise we make and it gives me a lot of freedom, plus we don't have children. After 16 years I'm not sure I could ever give that freedom up, but I do miss him a lot. He's my best friend.

• Joe McGann and I appeared together in a play called The Live Bed Show, which was about a couple's relationship over a 20-year period. We did the whole show in our pyjamas, and the opening scene was me having an orgasm. One night our director, Bob Carlton, was in a really bad mood, so at the end of my When Harry Met Sally noises, I shouted, 'Oh, Bob Carlton!' He was in a better mood after that.

• Another of my many stage roles, this time as Puck in A Midsummer Night's Dream in Regent's Park in 1993. I surfed around the stage on a skateboard and grazed my knuckles quite a lot - one night the skateboard shot from under me and flew into the audience. When I made my name as a singer in the 80s I never guessed I'd end up as a TV presenter, but I started acting with the National Theatre when I was 18 and had made seven films before I had my first hit record, so I always knew I'd end up on stage again.

• Here's me, Mari Wilson and Kim Wilde at a charity event back in the mid-80s. I used to bump into Mari a lot because she was so successful back then, but I think this was the first time I'd met Kim. I met her again recently on the Here And Now Tour and got to know her really well. I asked her if I could cover her song View From A Bridge for my new album, and she was cool about that.

• Being part of I'm A Celebrity ... Get Me Out Of Here! was remarkable. We had to face so many issues in the jungle. There were times we could have had a big gang fight, but we were determined to stick together. I didn't mind the tasks - the harder the better. the worst thing was the starvation. There must have been four days when we were high as kites - on hunger. But I loved it. I enjoyed not bathing, not cleaning, just getting muddy.

• This was at Top Of The Pops in 1981, when I was promoting my song Good Morning Universe. I look back on those days with pride because there were fewer opportunities for women - it was tough - but I still became successful. My image was a rebellion against the ideals of the time. The hair is all mine. It took bloody hours to get it to look like that and even longer to get it back to normal.

• Back in 1986 I appeared as Sally Bowles in Cabaret. What I remember most about the show is the time the orchestra walked out during a dispute, and we performed without a band. We sang along while people hummed and clicked their fingers. As you can see, the dancing girls on either side of me are about a foot taller. Perhaps I should have done what Kylie and Madonna do and found some shorter dancers.

• This was at a signing for my autobiography, Living Out Loud, a couple of years ago. The publishers originally asked me to write about my spiritual beliefs, but I declined. I'd hoped to follow it with a novel about terrorism, but after September 11th I didn't want to look like I was cashing in.

MY FAVOURITE PAP PHOTO: I met Diana at the Woman Of The Year Awards in 1987. She sat next to me at lunch and we were talking about her children. It was just before the news started to emerge about trouble in her marriage. In retrospect it was fascinating, because she told me all she cared about in the world was the future of William and Harry and that they'd be happy, so she must have known she'd be in danger of being parted from them. This is my favourite photograph because I am passionate about her. I don't want her to be wiped out of history.

M Celebs magazine, 2003