Dreamscape - Fan Article : Living Out Loud

Seeing the adverts for the up-coming tour with other artists from the eighties brought a warmth of memories as well as realities! Toyah's book was brought to my notice by my sister, as we are about go on holiday to The Gambia, so three of us went in the end!

The book actually left me quite deflated and annoyed. Deflated because here was a person I thought expressed my thoughts and feelings at a younger age not only in song but in appearance. Yes I will admit an idol! By the end of the book I realized one of us had lost the plot!

To try and cut a long story short it was fascinating to read a person you admired's life as they saw it. I was intrigued as to the story behind the

songs and what inspired the lyrics. My intrigue was not really satisfied but that is probably due to having an over active imagination or reading too much into the songs.

Why annoyed? Simply because Toyah says how her fans were not eager followers of her new style of music and she says how people do not like change. She obviously did not understand that she expressed what so many of us felt and wanted to be but we did not have the fire like she had or were too afraid.

This makes me sound like a wimp - well maybe - in my head I was like what she portrayed! At a guess people still wanted/needed someone to express their inner most feelings/thoughts and

all of a sudden no-one was there, hence they could not follow her change.

Hey Toyah has achieved a lot, I can not take that away from her but I would like to think I could make her understand a fan of the past!

All I want is to let Toyah know as a fan of those times how I understood her comments!

by Lavinia Hale
January 2002